growing older

funny how the older you get, your opinions on how your life will turn out (or rather, what direction you want you life to move in) change rather drastically. over the past few days i've been chatting with various friends about the road ahead and marriage and children. i still remember how when i was younger i was adamant that i could have both a successful career and a loving family, and more importantly that i wouldn't give up my job to be a full-time mother. in fact i think about 2 years ago i was still standing firm in my ideas of how i was going to raise a family.

yet now whenever i think about it, being a career mom doesn't seem that important. i actually think that i WANT to be a stay-home mom, driving my kids around to various activities (imagine me, a soccer mom in an SUV, or shuttling my children from hockey practice to saxophone classes and during grocery shopping in between!). coincidentally, i don't seem to be the only one who thinks so - 2 great dancers that i respect very much, Darcey Bussell and Alessandra Ferri, have recently retired to spend more time with their children.

perhaps this is what it feels like growing older...